18 Aug
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Routines, sick of them. Motivation, still lacking much. Lost, but of course. Tired, very.
I thought i was happy, but i am not. You get hopeful for a little while and you fall into a deep abyss of despondency when you realize your efforts would never be appreciated. I don’t understand what made me think i could actually make it. What was i thinking? In the end, as usual, i seek comfort only from myself.
25 Jul
For the past few weeks, many things happened. Happy things, sad things and one of the best things that’s happened to me in a long time now. But one thing’s still for sure, i’ve still not dawned on the fact that i’m left with less than 3 months to my national examinations. I hardly use the computer anymore. I promise to come back here and write about how i feel once in awhile until the end of my nationals.
See you everyone.
5 Jul
Taken with permission
Taken secretly without permission (and yes that’s how they act normally haha)
Yesterday (it’s supposed to be today but i wasted so much time uploading the pictures so it became today.. because it is already 1 am.. yeah.. um you get what i mean right?) i met Jojo and Cindy and we went to Kenneth’s school for his school carnival. I guess we were pretty late and there were not much food left. We didn’t try any of the games and we just walked around the school and bought some stuff to eat. The leftover foods were really depressing and i really wanted that chicken burger but the store was already closed (boohoo). We sat down and chatted for a little while. Cindy and i wanted to get some cup corns and we waited for like 25-30 mins for half corn filled cups that cost $2 each and they weren’t even buttery. Seriously, they tasted like the styrofoam cup (boohoohoo). After the carnival ended, we decided to go home since i had no plans and they did. We took the train and halfway i alighted because i had to take bus 39 (because i felt like taking a long bus ride). I didn’t expect the bus to be so packed and i stepped on somebody’s onitsuka tiger (teehee). Sigh, i want onitsuka tiger. When i just got home, my mom said that we were going to pick up my dad and go for dinner. So we did and while on the car, i just watched the streaks of lights from passing cars flash past while thinking of how things could be (sigh). Okay, time for bed now, bye bye.
2 Jul
The sky was very dark in the afternoon and it was really windy, just the kind of weather that i like. But it only drizzled for a little while and that made me sad. Well, i was already sad so it didn’t really matter. All i ever do is just lie on my bed and play nintendogs. I have a miniature schnauzer if you were wondering. It’s name is mini if you were wondering again. School has reopened and there seems to be a never ending stream of homework that keeps coming. I never seem to be able to finish any of my homework these days.
Why do things keep going downhill? You gave me a little glimmer of hope and now it’s all gone. I shouldn’t have believed in all that anyway. I should have just told myself ‘no’ in the first place.
I am just so tired now and want to go to sleep and try to forget all these sad, sad things.
27 Jun
It was a rather cooling and quiet afternoon. I got out of bed and nobody was at home. I had my breakfast alone in the silence that filled my house. And, i liked that a lot.
Just before i fell asleep yesterday, i heard this song through my earphones and was delightfully surprised at how soothing and calming it was. It just kind of motivated me. Tonight just before you fall asleep, plug in your earphones, close your eyes and have this song playing in your mp3 or phone. I’m sure you’ll like it.
Give it a listen.
26 Jun
I’ve finished my food and nutrition coursework, yay yay yay.. whatever.
Why does nothing ever go right in my life? Sigh.
25 Jun
Hiiiiiiiiiiiiii. Yesterday i went out with the snorkeling girl. I was 2 hours late (new record by the way). While everybody went to watch the sneak preview of transformer 2,we watched i love you, man. Projectile vomit (haha hilarious stuff, hilarious stuff). Okay then we went to the Singapore Flyer to have popeye’s for dinner and we gossiped.. a lot. Then on our way to the bus stop, we met a korean who was lost. We just told him to take a cab cus we were as clueless as he was. We didn’t know where our bus stop was ourselves and we walked on the road against oncoming cars (obviously it was her idea). When the bus came, it was as full as we were after we had our dinner. We had to stand throughout the whole ride at the front door, and we were gossiping again (like nobody’s business) as we watched cars go by. It was kind of nice though when the bus went on the highway and we could see the whole city all pretty and lighted up. It was nice to see her again after a week.
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It was such a cooling day today. It rained and the weather was just so nice. I really like rainy and very cold days. It’s makes staying at home bearable and kind of enjoyable. I just wanted to be lazy but i was trying so hard to finish my food and nutrition coursework so i can move on with my other homework. It is still unfinished, fyi (duh). Oh boy….. no holiday extension. I hope i will be able to finish my homework (ㅠ_ㅠ)
22 Jun
I have no idea why i keep sleep talking these days. My sister even said i sang once in my sleep. Yesterday was father’s day right? Did you all celebrate with your dads? I had a steam boat with my family and i had cheese tofu. Yay cheeese tofu. Oh, i hope our school holidays get extended because i haven’t touched my homework…. We’re going to have our class bbq soon this week. Can’t wait can’t wait! v(^ㅂ^)v
